photo shooting

yea~ i promised huiling will help for her assignment which is as a modal for photo shooting.
i knew ! i am not perfect , but don't know why i promised her...

with her DSLR, with me -- not a perfect modal, we done it!

she haven give me the photo, so unable to upload here, but then need to wait =P...

first time interview

YA! just what are you mention the title above,
today was awesome!
with ming, pui, yan and Leo...

today i was skipped the two hour computing technology class, we went to Eastern Hotel for my first time interview... before this you should not mention why i so bad keep skipping the class...because this week is week 12, which means the lecture is going to end... in addition, my computing lecture class is such a boring class in the world... not because of the syllabus, was because the lecturer...
Due to this problem, i was act as a 'orang asing' went into other class with the good lecturer =D

opss! back to our title...
after having our lunch at the cafeteria, we went to bus station to go to the destination. after reached there, was 1.41pm, when we went into the room, just got one girl sat inside there. we were shocked! and then pui asked her aunt, bla bla bla...

finally we knew that that was not a training, It WAS AN INTERVIEW...!!!
well =.= we didn't prepare at all...
first of all, introduce ourselves and interview in a small room alone ...
when went in the room, that trainer acted as a customer,
and they gave me 2 product which is milo and rebina...
sure! i choosing milo, because i drink it don't how many times, and milo gave me many ideas to present... after $^^O%$%#@ all done....
but i did not scare at not, don't why?!

5 of us, 4 of us choose milo. see!! milo is powerful right!!
then when we waiting bus, someone went to buy milo...=.=
really no comment~

around 4++pm... after 5 of us done of interview, sure back home la..lol


first time interview, don't know how to describe here, but awesome !

nice peyni=D

no name

when people keep asking my name....
why i must tell them i am XXX~
weird~ i will feel shy when i tell them my name- penny!
why ?
i also do not know!

not so emo so far...learning how to accept things that i do not what to accept!
i know~ this is life ! i know!
when i keep my sadness in my mind, i will die ...
is killing myself... do u agree?
is learning how to happy .... yes! i must communicate well with you all...
not keep myself into a dark place... it is too idiot!
i hope someone would not keep nagging the same problem to me...i will die ~
i believe if you keep smiling and happy , happiness is not far with you....

also, i kinda miss my friends that i knew them before....
time pass so fast,
i scare~ 2010 will pass through soon...
i scare all memories will just become a dream, a memory, has been forgotten!
2010 is such a meaningful year for me~!
i changed a lot!! no matter what happen...

I JUST SCARE SOMEONE, SOMETHINGS AND SOME PLACES WILL BE FORGOTTEN !!

i do not know what i am writing about~
just randomly...
no border got any error~
actually!

MEMORY~

空间

活得很假的代价: 累死自己
现在,我需要, 一个小小，暗暗的空间,关着自己~

我很不开心! =(

我的痛,该找谁诉说=(
问题,如果真的发生! 很难想象! 未来的路我还要你们陪我帮我!!!!

突然想起以前有过的念头，一了了之，2012 是真的吗??

=(

找不到

1234567...我的朋友在那里??
在这里,在这里!,我的朋友在这里!

这首因该是很快乐的儿歌。
不!!

现在我却听到这样的~

1234567...我的快乐在那里??
在那里?在那里?我的快乐在那里?!

越长大之后，这样的旋律在我的脑海里也显得更加清晰=(

我还是在寻找着
我的快乐

心情总是变化得很快
一下子的快乐，也消失得很快!
我并不是双子。
我不想有这样的特征

热情的牧羊，那才是我
热情，积极
渴望很久
却一直在寻找
很久很久
筋疲力尽
还是一样的在摸索，寻找!

现在的，很沮丧
感觉很多是不是如我所愿

我想再次找回无厘头得冲，敢做敢冲的我!
我需要再次被肯定，被称赞!
很久很久!

寻寻觅觅
希望下次的文章
会是原来的我
感觉我都很悲
但是那不是我
-颜佩妮-

我也不想这样。

现在的我，好像借一个肩膀靠靠，
我好想任意发泄，好想全世界都让着我，让我这样做!
痛哭，你看不到
但是
不允许这样! 很坚强的我，不许这样懦弱!!


好想问: 每天笑笑的你们，是发自内心的吗?

你们快乐吗=)

ngo: not performed well
academic: u fail me
coco: u let me alone
pny: =(....let it easy...not complicated , ok ?
pakai: nature is ok !!
bf:u think too much!!

(希望这些话，下次，是让我笑着的)

别来安慰，拥抱!!

缘分

人与人之间的缘分
发生的突然
也很奇妙

人与人之间的缘分
只能说
很奇妙

是一个解不开的

- 连 -

很甜的-101010-

一如往常，会定时看看朋友的部落格。
但是今天，我看到某篇文章的时候，既然被感动到整个人停顿了大概一分钟的时间!
就是他~林超群。
以前的我们并不认识彼此，而我只是个会定时浏览它部落的粉丝~
今年国民服务的机缘下，我们认识了。
今天，他让我对友情的看法有了另外的见解。
从别人陌生的部落客，到今天出现在别人部落的文章之一，
感觉很美好。
被友情感动的心情，好像特别开心，因为我从来没有果真感觉。

{你真的很不一样}。

-101010-
i am smile ...
because i found that i am cherished
^^

happy mid-autumn day^^

今年的中秋虽然不能在家乡过，亦然也会比以往难忘!
话说，今年的中秋，没有灯笼，却很多蜡烛点^^
一群大学生在宿舍楼下的草场，点了很多蜡烛在那里的桌子，
要说成破坏公物也很合理(因为过后留下的是酒瓶，满桌子的蜡烛印...)
中秋夜，一群大学生并没有很尽兴地玩灯笼，而是很疯狂的大冒险。
--添奶头，捏屁股，种草莓，....--
终于见识到一群恶心的男生会做得事~

女生就~

这个中秋, 很中秋^^

-不一样的中秋

target~

result was released just now.
suddenly felt so sad!
but not mean unhappy,
it's not bad, but still haven reach my target!
it's my target too high?
i done my best!
why still like that?
or should i still pay more attention ?
or more hardworking ?
study like the way before preparing SPM?
suddenly feel so sorry to someone...

anywhere, semester 2 i will try my best best best!!

aza aza fighting!!

semester one

好不容易捱过了第一个学期，
假期，却无聊得发慌~

突然有点舍不得~
人就是这样，还没假期就老实等待假期得来临，有假期却无所事事，
现在却有点怀念一起赶assignment, presentation,slide show,quiz,test,midterm, and final exam的日子。
这一个学期，是零的开始。
什么都是第一次，第一次很紧张的presentation,
第一次经历为了赶assignment而闹内讧的感觉，

还有上了大学，考试就变得不简单了，一旦fail,就得从读，还得浪费学费。-一切尽在不言中-^^

presentation~

食,衣,住,行 自己来！critical thinking,什么科来者，考试根本不用读的科，只要有脑就会pass!

感叹光阴似箭，岁月催人老

guitar~

7/9/2010

总算实现了18岁的其中一个愿望~
买了吉他给自己~
plkn 的那笔钱想了好久都不知道要怎样用，三个月受训的辛苦，一定要买一样礼物奖励自己,
反正想买吉他有一段时间~
索然用了这笔钱就当作一份搞赏自己的纪念~

my guitar^^v

i love music! guitar love me!

最想念的人~MC0.2631

生命中有很多过客，每天都有很多人与我们擦肩而过，相识并不容易

为什么? 会是你?

最想念的人!

你走的那一天，已经知道会有这样的结局，已有的心理准备，可是...

四个月前，一点消息也没有，现在，你终于出现在了。

你这个家伙。

对于你的无声无息，随着日子慢慢平淡，
可是，
突然有了你的消息，
想念更强烈!

你还好吗? 会想着同样的回忆吗?
一个消息，心里都会有一点兴奋地感动。
五个月，等着那段被确定的友谊，
只要你确定，那真的是友谊。

你会不会偶而想起我?
真的很想再见你!
那天真的会到来吗?

我很想你，你知道吗?

不管遇见多少人，只能叹息那不是你

=(

why ?

suddenly feel that

why the time gone so fast?!

time is gold!

最近~

最近的最近~
有点不知所措！到现在还在怀疑自己的选择会让自己后悔吗？
这个问题问自己问了几百次~怎样？！
很忙！忙得不开心=（

不懂！

在最不开心想放弃的时候，总有股力量唤我坚持着，就这样，坚持和努力的毅力促使我要更加油~
很怕让你们至情失望，但是我还是会努力！

daddy mummy i love u!

喃喃~

.我.在大学的第三个礼拜.充实+忙碌的生活让我抽不抽不出时间来记录自己过去的心情。趁着宿舍没人,宁静的下午,终于可以静下来写着自己过去.....

.我.2/6/10...这天，我终于“捐血”了！趁着做student ID card的同时，排四个小时队的同时，想都不想就答应朋友的决定~朋友问我，为什么你对捐血抱着这么大的热诚？因为，自plkn留下来的遗憾，因为生病的理由,让我‘怀恨’...没有其他原因，单纯只是想要完成我在十八岁后可以做的一件事。捐血的感觉，没感觉~ 但是过后的这几个星期，凡是拿重的东西，手就会抖。(后遗症?) 我很过分！每天拿捐血的理由，以为自己很弱，开朋友玩笑^^.我. 第一个礼拜在foundation in science的班上课，因为biology的关系，终于决定转去foundation in arts.这两个星期里没什么上课。转系的事情就是这样复杂!中间也认识到很多朋友.在arts的那个礼拜，在group17的我，竟然只有两个人的班，另外一个是Yap~这个男生,开始认识他就告书我是一个内向的男生.突然有一点傻眼！算了,一个礼拜的相处还不错啦~还有,另外一个男生更可怜，group18只有他一人=='...所以ya,lecture class的时候只有我们三~我想这是我在utar的‘体验’...平常lecture class有百多人的课竟然只有我们三个.真是翻白眼！还好,一切在这个星期恢复正常~我们又被派进group16....只是,我的加把劲了，之前两个星期的课没上到，最知那个还是得靠自己cover回去！gambateh~!!

.我.在大学还有一个mentor...他叫Ken...我就是所谓的mentee....(这项活动简称mento mentee, mentor就是负责‘照顾’mentee...凡是有任何问题都可以向mento诉说,当然他们就会尽全力去帮我们^^)mento mentee 在plkn也是有过这项活动，突然好想念ns life!

.我.的‘狗屎之交’--yen shan那天打来，我们竟然可以谈接近一个小时的电话,不是夸张!是因为自从ns过后就没谈天过,每每都是online chat...^^这一通电话，让我很想见你，很想向你诉说很多事情...这份友情ya，只那时候种下后，真的是比亲生姐妹还要好^^我好像会去setapak的路了，我们一定要出来gethering!

.我.昨天在sherlyn的口中知道她有一位和我们同龄的朋友过世了.他还说--生命无常--！突然想起了过去一年半里在我身边一次次失去的人...阿公，二姨，大伯，还有雪梅表妹~你们在另外一个世界可安好？所以说ya,人生！sherlyn,也因为要省饿着自己啊！自从上了大学后,才发现外面的世界真的是如此~~~

.我.在外面生活才发觉原来要打理自己的“食”是有些烦人的..幸好宿舍里还有一位厨师--佩君.才解决晚餐的问题.不然ya,晚餐要怎样解决还是个问题^^.....那天老妈为了我要回pj没打给他就在拜一做功课的时候打来，很温馨的叮咛，（煮汤少放点鸡精块，不要吃maggie,。。。）突然很想念妈妈煮的食物!
---慢慢的学会成长该要面对的心情, 慢慢地成熟~-- 记取之前18的精力与磨练，

.我.还要继续加油^^

-突然发觉用华语写文章，所花的时间，还真长~== '-

life at pj

yeah ! I'M BACK ~

the UTAR orientation day actually end at this thursday...but i was back at tuesday...ya, the reasons i back early because of the orientation was very bored...and i still cnt adapt myself due to the new enviroment.... i knew that the ice breaking held on this wednesday was very fun, but i'm homesickness, everything comes to me becomes sad!

at home, many ppl keep asking me why i am no at pj, and i need to explain the same answer for many many times...=='

i still remember the first night i slept at the new room with 3 roommate.....they are layjiun, sherlyn, peijing ang me....we 4 girls ya, insomnia suffered ....until 3am, we still cnt sleep...this is because the room was very hot( one fan only that found in our room), and someone felt very serious because second day will be the first day at UTAR... finally, we all decided moved our tilam to living room.....finally, we slept at living for two days....

* by the way, i need to apologize to my housemate due the unhappy ending that happened on that night....(about the deposit, the fees, ......）

24may2010, first day at utar... suffered ing.... in the early morning, we missed the bus, missed the way back to the apartment,++ing....i really angry with the altitude of the bus driver....his altitude made us very blur and blur the way back to the apartment..finally, we spent at least one hour , with our kaki, under sun, way back from utar to our apartment....== at that time , i really want to cry!

+finally i found that very few of jjr student study at utar. meet peiwee, ahfang at utar... wee told me ahming also study at utar...==arghhh....y my wire soooo short....if i know early, i think everything will change.i really hate the life at pj, should i go kampar? it's too late...

and now, i am still confusing......i think this is me! cnt make decision nicely....by the way, i need to settle all my privacy problem as soon as possible. can 'guan yin mama 'give me some ideas?

monday, my class will start at 8am until 2pm....=='
at PD block....alone...how? scare!

*the first club i join at utar was film club.
*the first pretty senior i knew at utar was JOE.
*the ....

- first week at utar = first week at pkln...
i can adapt the plkn life , uni life y cnt?!^^
ya~ i am wirawati yea...

starting point ~new life

still have 23++hrs, i need to leave my lovely hometown, move to pj to start my university life..
but don't know why i have no any feeling now~ this is my second time need to leave my home and go to other place after plkn.... i hope that my new life and my future will going smoothly and everything is ok to me....
but i feel very happy because i can go home once a week....no like plkn....^^

But!! i haven prepare anything yet.....!!!

although i need to move later.....haha...but, this is the easy job for me to prepare.....
(from the experience of the plkn^^)

and finally i get my own laptop ......thanks to the dealer willing changed a new laptop to me while the laptop before had bluetooth problem...^^

24-30may- orientation day
31may - start to study...

yeaaa....I AM REALLY.....gambateh ya^^

*g-pNy*

**thx daddy bought me a laptop^^

星情~

昨天,和几个朋友出去.虽然很平常但突然有所感慨~和蕊的对话,想起了过去自己的决定...
想起六年前如果没有选择到独自到一个陌生的环境求学,离开六年的友谊,....或许,现在是另一个我.
遗憾的! 时间不能重来. (mr tay说过的一个' physic theory',如果时间能倒流,在那之前我们已经粉身碎骨了)如果可以,我不会到MES,而是继续留在JJR...这里,有小学的朋友(很真,毫无掩盖的纯真友谊)
前者没有不好,独立,,坚强,好胜,....都是这里学来的....只是~不能释怀变质的友谊...
遇到'老朋友', 陌生的感觉...些许的反感~
蕊说五年真的很快,一下子就18...我想~五年后大学毕业...这五年,会快吗?
*前几天又接到有个朋友经为人母亲的消息..毛毛的感觉久久不能退~想说:已经是第五次有着同样的感觉了...(同样的18,却又不一样的人生,人生即使如此~)
*10/5/2010....tarc 的开学日.....
huiling,yenshan,akee,jiajin,agc,chewyan,siewyee,lingling,caiwan,...
踏上全新的旅途,大家一起加油!! 迷茫的时候,要记得歇歇自己的小脚Y,不要忘了自己最初的选择....
*距离24/5还有15天,UTAR orientation day ....人生的转弯处,下个路口,买好信心及勇气去迎接....
但是还是有些担心及害怕....
很多人告诉过我: 既然已经做好了决定,就不要再犹豫....just do it!!
*10/5/2010....i will attend the form 6 class at SMK TELOK DATOK....在家太闷,消遣当经验....

雨天的雨点依偎在大地的怀里,
天晴了,雨点就会蒸发,
蒸发就好像雨点心里的惆怅,久久不能释怀的心情,
慢慢的蒸发,雨点就慢慢的释怀,
久了,雨点重新回到空气的怀抱,
释怀了,想透了.....
继续微笑^^

malacca & cameron highland...

yeaaaa... long time no manage my blog already....because pny is very busy ...rite.....and out going tooo..this few days, i need to make decision that made me very worry...yes! include study at UTAR...SHOULD i go form 6? UTAR suitable for me?? i think time will give me answer ....

before going to study, i must enjoy my life...and go to try the new things...YES! ON 25-26 may...i went to malacca...as a ' beauty model'....this model are no need to walk the cat walk...just lay on the bed and let the makeup artist "to do their best'....because the limited of time....we were no more time to take the picture...haiz~ night, we went to the seaside and play ground ...^^ my mind was very peaceful when saw the sea...and love the seaside so much... little taiwan''

seaside..

playground

30april--2may2010 **cameron highland**

traveled to CH with my family gang...from my hometown to CH need 5++hours....CRAZY!!
BECAUSE OF LABOUR DAY...anywhere...this trip not too enjoy because the whether was very cool and TRAFFIC JAM....!!JAM ~ 1hour in the car...( the way back from restaurant to hotel =='' )gahhhh!!! besides that, the restaurant there like covin ...friend noodle, fried rice, vege, taufu, mihoon need rm138 for 2 table???!! AND THE TRAFFIC J AM made us cant go to pasar malam...so we stayed at the hotel whole night at CH...plan to meet miss C H ,but==''

pic time++ ...

strawberry chocolate

our gang

chocolate lover

tomato lover

bro and sis

relax..

one malaysia?

23 april 2010



morning, after having my breakfast...I was called by a malay's woman..at that time, i was shocked by her very orange colour baju kurung....like an oren ...~~
YES! the first impression that she gave me was a 'sales man'... rejected her and closed the door of my home...but wat the else... she never gave up when she knew that i wont bother about her...
but! i really like her SEMANGAT because she just spoke to me about her and bla bla bla...

so, opened back the door la...THEN, SHE ASKED ME 'U KNOW WHAT THE IDEA OF ONE MALAYSIA'... YA...one malaysia - this two world always keep in my mouth when plkn....
she said just want to do a research for me...ya... she comes from

METRIX RESEARCH SDN.BHD ( from kuala lumpur)

this research waste my time about 25min.... at the end of the research....this dialog was shocked me at that time.....

pny : mak cik, you do this research at this area only?

woaman : we also will do another research at different area because we need to know the percentage......( bla bla bla)
pny: just you make this (research) only?
woman : ya...SUSAHLAH!.....SO PLEASE HELP ME....
pny : so how about your salary?
woaman : i will earn RM10 when one set of research had done....(1set = i people )
pny : WA! SO EASY JOB! STILL NEED TO HELP MAK CIK AHHHH??!
woman : ya ! my company will call you and ask you some questions...you must tell them you get a gift ( actually a ORANGE!! colour recycle bag ) and tell them i sudah show my name card to you...ok? please say YES because they will TOLAK my salary if you say NO!! OK??
pny : ==....ok lo!
woman : (^^) .. thanks a lot!!
pny : == ( +ing)


* i thInk that research just ask me about the economy in m'sia and about our presiden...SO~ WHAT THE ELSE WITH ONE MALAYSIA??*

*i love malaysia*

回忆录~

11/4/2010...我离开geo kosmo有一个月的时间了...想起上个月的这几天...不是哭就是满满的不舍.....wira & wirawati陆续的离开....人生就是如此....不是逗留就是离开.....就像之前在佛堂班上过的课...(缘起缘灭)一样....因为有缘才相聚....时间到了....就得离开~
对于-plkn- 这个任务都不会有太大的抗拒....当时第一次用电话查的时候...没有中....心里有些难过....因为会想去体验那里的生活....直到收到信的时候...才相信自己真的如愿以偿了....
4/1/2010....永远也忘不了的一天....刚开始会觉得很不习惯....很想回家....很想哭....永远记得在geo kosmo的第一餐是像wire的长豆, 结块的饭, 卖相很不好的ayam goreng, & air sirap....地确...吃几口就丢了....觉得不是人吃的....进到dorm更惨...怎么那么热又脏....*&^@#!&*......
一切的一切...用了一个星期来适应....慢慢开始接受那里的生活....**我很庆幸**因为有-charlie girl -hui ling(认识了六年的朋友)...才不会那么害怕....我alpha...每次都会坐在charlie的位子...觉得很无奈...因为那里华人多又亲切~alpha*往往觉得是女生但是没有共同的话题~-跑去charlie是我最常做的事~很感谢慧陵...因为他..我才会认识那么多朋友..

-hui ling-

直到yan shan & mei ling的到来....我才不用往charlie去...
( 因为'天线'接对了)



yan shan, me & mei ling

还有**

*第一个星期不是被人家问就是问人家: where u come from? what is your name?*&&%@#@...

*ALPHA-P2女生的感情本来就不是很好~也发生很多不愉快的事~心理战玩很大!!也成了很多人的笑柄...P2 的气氛跟charlie的真的形成一个对比~想起当初老师问谁要换dorm,真的很想举手,可是没有勇气....原因是我在p2找不到温暖....(yan shan & meiling 还没来的时候)

*因为下雨,flying fox没得玩(for alpha only)...也取消森林的活动(提早回家领spm成绩)....第一次在褐色的水池游泳....etc.....==

*在camp里生病,真的会很想家!~ 之前还笑yan shan 生病想家像小孩子, 但自己经历过就知道~

*朝夕相处的朋友真的很像一家人....感情很好....

*永远记得一起被罚,一起流汗,一起笑过哭过,互相鼓励,互相安慰,一起晒太阳,一起冲凉,一起啃泡面,一起打瞌睡,......

*.....*.....

>>最难过还是10/3/2010...你能想象当每个人都回家的时候吗?自己还得留在camp?小猫两三只~这种感受比第一天进camp还难受! 因为适应不了geo kosmo没有大家一起排队,吃东西的日子....一个早上从400++的人数变到<100个人的camp....宁静的很不习惯....很空.....很难受~

>>11/3/2010>>spm 成绩放榜! 早上刚从geo kosmo回家, 就匆忙地到学校领成绩,这种感觉很复杂....因为面对离别之际,还要担心有没有'苹果'吃....第一次领成绩没有感觉(心里只有舍不得geo kosmo的朋友)

-----plkn, 撇开其他不说, 认识一大班' 生命中的朋友' 真的很庆幸!
有大家在的地方, 就会很吵........^^

~因为我们~
LOVE LIFE

珍爱生命,永不放弃!

we love life~^^V

回忆~还是会想! 因为-甜甜的^^

start from zero @ Jangan LIpat ~!!

***为什么没有07' 08' 和09'的文章?? 没什么.....就想从零开始.....把他们给删了~~***

plkn 后的生活并不好过.......
感觉很空,无所事事.......
真的好怀念那一段日子.......
话说今天下午,终于收到了照片.....看了看...回忆历历在目...
大大的信封,不够大,还要加大才能装得下那两张照片...~~
虽然觉得他们(jurulatih)的办事效率有待改善,但很守信用....在一个月内的确把照片送到.......
但是!!!照片的容貌....可想而知!!~~
信封外明明写好-jangan lipat!! (gambar) (thx).....都是白写的.....
-邮差先生,你看不见吗??-

加大的信封写着jangan lipat...(gambar) (thx)结果~~



结果还是摸摸心胸,安慰自己,拿到就好~~^^

生命中最hero的照片~
I'm wirawati GAN PEY NI^^L